when i never seem sad or lonely, it doesnt mean that i dont feel it..
I can seem so cheerful yet so many things run on my mind, i can seem so enjoyed yet i feel so much burden. Yeah i think that everyone face the same problems with me, mostly for the ones who hasnt really acquainted with any body which means that we have to struggle ourselves.

Meeeeee doesnt want people underestimate myself, and fr all thepeople wh think the same way, they will keep ourselves seem strong by facing our problem ourselves.

This is one point where i feel so restless, i need some breakthrough on my routines, i have  no idea, have i been on the right path? have i been the same me as i was on my senior high school? -because as a comparison, i got everything in my senir high school huaaaa-

i really hope that you,blog, can really talk and give me some advice T.T

so actually i dont know what i really want to say......
(a part of this text i wrote in 2012)

its about 10: 53 pm and im still awake. Not a wide awake, because actually i want to study about some subjects -and you know that opening book ca apparently make you sleepy-. kwwkwk.

Actually i have another important schedule tonite, but since i just take ma fams got back to semarang after having a short vacancy in Bandung, me felt so tired that i told ma friend that i cant make that schedule and choose to sleep for a while.

And now... believe me that i try to open some slide on the first 15 minutes wkwkw.
Got trapped on rereading ma old posts in this blog and i feel so anxious why i could state that kind of writings -or maybe.. feeling-. yaa i got numb rite now, i just feel like there is nothing that can affect ma feeling rite now, -except eerything abut ma family makes me got into tears easily, im a sensitive girl actually :")-. And thats really horrible.

Okay as always i never have a point on ma posting, hope you can get used to it.
Good nite.

utp;6epl8idf;i;

Its sunday morning with extra light exposure on my Kostan (where i live now)'s bench. It was about almost an hour im sitting here scrolling the old posting of my favourite blog, especially fashion blog.
Time flies, people changes... Just now a open a blog and read the latest post till the former post then i realized the author has get tanned.. One example on how people changes.. And thats what i feel now.

Being apart from my greatest high school friend is so terrible, here we have different level of humor, different custom, different why to get acquinted with the others. And i think its on of biggest reason why people changes.. Maybe it shud be 'adapt' instead of 'change'.

New people, new 'It Guy', new beloved friend but never replace those remarkable friend.. I love the atmosphere, here, where people compete with each other int the positive way to always be the best. But i just havent got the feeling 'like home' that shud i have to survive in this new town alone huhuuuhu
Its kind of important, since having 'feelings like home' feeling make you have somebody who will support you in every kind of situation, when yoou fell of or who just got some achievement..
I hope ill have it soon :)


Enjoy your days

im typing this during my study since i'll have final exam in the following three days.. huahahaha somebody please save me..

Anyway.. Have i told you? i'm now officially a collegian, in one of Technology of Institute taking pharmacy major.

Having new daily activities, new friends, new enviroments.. i really thanked God for everything i had now. Passing the new age alone at new town is really cool huahahaha since i got extra cool gift too, which is meeting AFGAAAAAN.

COULD YOU BELIEVE?? After a very long time chasing him by never passing his live performance in Semarang, i got a picture in my first meeting in Bandung ( and you should know that was FREE) GYAHAHAHAHHAA seee thiss!!!