i think twitter has had a friction of their social function. it was not a microblogging anymore since (for me) what i tweet was about something good, i mean i really have to think and make sure about the impact after i tweet it, cant say bad word or something like that.
 yap.. actually,it is not a lil number of account which tweet about something really bad, rude words because they didnt concern about what their followers will thought or so on. but me is different.
and it was totally uncool. so i make an escape to blog.blog should be another place for me to free me of burden and the other tiresome thing in my life and not causing new problem about what gonna happen if i post about bad thing since theres no people gonna read about this hehe.
thats my a try to find a win win solution..
the reason why i keep thinking about what are people going to think is because i know them. so thats why i re active this blog because i cant stand anymore to keep my problem all alone. it have to share it. twitter or blog it can be both. but i prefer blog since twitter has a lil friction of their function like what i ve said before..

today i studied with 3 friends preparing for our 5th trial test tomorrow. and what im going to share is not about what i have learnt but about the story of my 2 friends.
they are a very close friend, have been together since kindergarden till they had to go to different senior high school. but their friendship is just going straight. so nice.
they frequently do sleepover, have an exercise, study soon together. i think they share everything. it is so sweet till you know they both are boys.- because i never have an idea if boys also can have a such kind of friendship, it is just too sweet to be done by boys (in my opinion)-.
the conclusion is.. they are so envious. frankly, i dream about having a life time friend that i can share everything with. but i realize it will be hard in a stage of my age, because what i heard is that, by growing older people has tend to be fake to the other. less sincere. so what i can do is just finding friends as many as i can, and try hard not to be fake unless noone will be my friend.
but at last i still envy those boys hahaha....

my high school time will end soon.. for about 2 months remainning then i have to leave my beloved school SMA N 3 Semarang.. :"( :"(

i gotta to go, afgan is waiting for me! CU :**

im so close to tears. i have no one to share with. feels so lonely.
this is what im going to say: im not a kind of girl who loves admiring my lover. it s not me at all. the only guy i praise is afgan. hahaha. he is exceptional. the only moodbooster left now. because lately i have a frequent sudden bad mood attack, and listening to his voice is the only way.
actually, by writting what we felt also can lighten our burden, but the problem is sometimes the it guy unfortunately read what we wrote then make the problem bigger. thats why, ignoring the world for a while will be the best question..
anyway, i will have a kind of trial test for national examination tomorrow but my brain is about to explode, then i decide to open my old blog and write something.. here it is. as random as usual. hahaha.
by the way, some girls were stating about envying my life, but im pretty sure it wont last longer if the know what actually i hide. i m so good at pretending. acting is becoming my life. strong. independent, cheerful. yet afgan+korean freak. hahaha. so what im trying to say is just thanking God for what have yoi got now. although it so hard..
okay, i think i sud go sleep now, maybe lil practice wont make my brain burnt. wish me luck ;;)