im so close to tears. i have no one to share with. feels so lonely.
this is what im going to say: im not a kind of girl who loves admiring my lover. it s not me at all. the only guy i praise is afgan. hahaha. he is exceptional. the only moodbooster left now. because lately i have a frequent sudden bad mood attack, and listening to his voice is the only way.
actually, by writting what we felt also can lighten our burden, but the problem is sometimes the it guy unfortunately read what we wrote then make the problem bigger. thats why, ignoring the world for a while will be the best question..
anyway, i will have a kind of trial test for national examination tomorrow but my brain is about to explode, then i decide to open my old blog and write something.. here it is. as random as usual. hahaha.
by the way, some girls were stating about envying my life, but im pretty sure it wont last longer if the know what actually i hide. i m so good at pretending. acting is becoming my life. strong. independent, cheerful. yet afgan+korean freak. hahaha. so what im trying to say is just thanking God for what have yoi got now. although it so hard..
okay, i think i sud go sleep now, maybe lil practice wont make my brain burnt. wish me luck ;;)